Channeling George and Kevin


I had planned to write something a couple of weeks as I sat in the shade in my pseudo-home of the past eight months: a self-storage lot in Solana Beach, California. I sat there watching, well, my life, essentially, get packed up into three large wooden crates for shipment to my more-rooted home in Alaska and a couple of thoughts occurred to me.

The first was: “Holy shit! I need to lighten my load!” This feeling was strengthened a couple of days later when the moving company (in a turn of events as shocking as Claude Rains finding out there was gambling going on at Rick’s Cafe Americain in “Casablanca”) declared that the actual cost of shipping my stuff north was going to be a little bit more expensive than their estimate: 60 percent more expensive. Gulp. Well, what could I do? They had my stuff in the aforementioned wooden crates in a storage yard in beautiful downtown Poway, California, and I was 3,800 miles away, back in Anchorage, Alaska. I told them to get the stuff moving north.

The honesty of moving companies notwithstanding, the fact remains that I have a ton of crap that I don’t use that often. And unlike a lot of my friends, I actively purge my belongings on an annual basis. But some of the things that had always seemed so important took on a new role as I realized their density made for expensive shipping. I mean, do I really need all those books I’ve been toting with me for a couple of decades? The complete works of Jim Harrison and Tom McGuane…do I need them on hand 24/7 or will the memories of how those works moved me suffice? And if I absolutely must reference something from my collection, wouldn’t a public library (like the one I’m sitting in right now) enable me to accomplish that goal?

The second (and contradictory) thought that occurred to me as I watched those crates filling up was: “Wow. Forty-five years and that’s all I have to show for it.” I felt like Kevin Kline in “A Fish Called Wanda” when he shoots the empty safe and yells out, “Disappointed!” Friends and acquaintances have actual lives to look back upon: families, kids, homes, second homes, loves, losses, fine china, sentimental gewgaws, hand-me-downs, inexplicable gotta-haves and so forth. Me? I have a lot of toys (i.e.: sports gear), a huge bed, a dresser, kitchen tools, a gajillion CDs, a few hundred hours of Grateful Dead concerts on cassettes and a ton of books. Not much to show for 45 years, is it?

Regardless of whether I have too much detritus or not enough, the experience was profound enough that I will definitely be doing an item-by-item recalculation once everything arrives here in Alaska in another couple of weeks. Expect a few changes…

Dateline: Ketchikan, Alaska

Arrived in this gateway city at about 7am this morning. We entered Alaska both literally and figuratively: the middle of the night saw cold rain and snow with a driving wind descend upon the M/V Malaspina. I awoke around 3:30am to the boat rocking way more than it had on the trip to that point, and the visible outline of snow flakes on my tent. I clambered outside, fearful that somehow the rain fly had blown off while I slept. But my fears were unfounded: the fly was fine and still well-secured, though the wind-driven wet snow was piling up on the wall of the tent facing the starboard side. I brushed off the fly (a pointless exercise, really, but I’d ventured outside and felt like I should do SOMETHING) and crawled back to sleep.

Three hours later, the announcement that we were pulling into Ketchikan roused me out of bed once and for all. A skiff of wet snow covered the decks of the Malaspina, making walking treacherous. And now, as I sit in a coffee shop across from the ferry terminal, the rain-and-snow mix that dumped about six to eight inches of snow on the streets of Ketchikan has given way to thinning clouds and patches of blue sky. The forecast (for here and farther north) is for clearing skies but windy conditions. We have a seven-hour layover (five more to go) here in Ketchikan before we head to Wrangell and Petersburg; we’ll arrive in Juneau tomorrow morning after 8am and, after a three-hour layover, it’s another four hours or so to Haines and the end of my ferry ride.

My tent is visible on the bridge deck, a small yellow dome at the foot of the boat’s light mast and just aft of the solarium.

WHOA! An avalanche of wet snow just slid off the roof of the restaurant here, shaking the building with a loud “BOOM!” as it landed.

Anyway…the tent is visible, as was the Alaska Airlines flight that just landed at the airport across Tongass Narrows from town. The forested hills of Gravina Island rise beyond and everything is covered with a fresh coat of white. Ferry passengers with dogs are throwing tennis balls for their recently liberated canines in the snow-filled parking lot. Snow plows scrape past the window, not really doing much as they’ve already cleared the two lanes of roadway, but the shin-high mound of dirty slush atop what would be the yellow line in the middle of the street remains untouched.

It really has made for a complete transition: from sunny, warm early spring days in the Pacific Northwest to the very-much-still-winter time that is February in Alaska. And there’s quite a ways north still to go.


Saturday sunrise from my tent
Johnstone Narrows, British Columbia


Lighthouse
Bella Bella, British Columbia

En Route: 7pm AST, Saturday, 19 Feb

I’m comfortably ensconced in my tent on the bridge deck of the M/V Malaspina, just aft of the solarium. It’s a frighteningly dark night, with a layer of clouds obscuring any stars, the moon or any outline of the islands and the mainland sliding past. A cold, crisp wind blows, making for a chill night when one is out wandering the decks of the ferry, but here in my ancient VE-24 tent with a winter sleeping bag and a down comforter on top of a queen-sized inflatable mattress, well, I’m as snug as the proverbial bug in a rug.

We’re 24-plus hours out of Bellingham and about 12 short of Ketchikan. This first day at sea has been a great reminder of what’s missing in these hectic days of air-only travel. Yes, the pace is slow (compared to the Alaska Airlines 737s streaking past above the clouds) but this reversion to Alaska Time has been therapeutic. Sightseeing was tremendous, even by Alaska/British Columbia standards: the weather today was nothing short of fantastic, featuring blue skies with nary a cloud (until this layer rolled in right around sunset), green islands easing out of the steel-blue and cold-looking water, and high snow-covered peaks on the mainland to starboard. And in the slower going of ferry travel, one can take all these elements in, process them, and savor the connection between observer and observed that’s really there, visible and palpable if one chooses to breathe and see. It’s a therapy that has me growing ever more peaceful and comfortable the farther north we travel. Where just 24 hours ago I wondered (read: worried, fretted…stressed) about my path, now I’m simply enjoying it. And that’s been a welcome return home, not necessarily in terms of location (though it might be that, too) but psychologically.

And the ride has been just plain fun. It’s strange: I’ve taken two stints and watched DVDs on my laptop, and in those few hours it was as though this trip wasn’t taking place and I was back in California, Utah, Massachusetts…anywhere but here. And now. And while the intermissions were enjoyable, they’re not nearly as fun and enjoyable and comfortable as simply enjoying the scenery that surrounds the boat.

The clientele on board the Malaspina has been pretty cliche: military families bound for a new post; outdoor-sports enthusiasts fresh off several months in Joshua Tree heading north to enjoy what remains of winter and get a jump on summer; standard-issue rednecks loudly lamenting the demise of the “land of the free” heading to what they swear must surely be their salvation; and so on. The preponderance of southern accents is hardly surprising, especially the Okie and Texan twangs of the oil workers. The solarium tends to attract the solitary travelers, where they bunch up, swap cigarettes and stories; I’ve been enjoying my comfy front-row seat for this never-ending exodus to the holy land for society’s outcasts.

Or maybe that front-row seat is actually on the stage and I, too, am a player?